What's life for ? (part 2)

Three months and fifteen days 

have passed since you left my life.

I cry through the nights and sleep

through the days 

since you left my life.

If you knew that without you I won't 

know what is happiness.

If you knew that without you I won't 

know how to survive.

Now nothing is important to me 

Even dreams 

That seem foolish 

If I'm not with you, then what for ?

Being half crazy 

spinning around

And I search and I can't see you.

What's life for ? what for ?

What's life for ?

I went down the streets. I called my 

friends 

They told me to rip you from my life

I went to the doctor, he gave me 

some sedatives

But what do you want me to say ?

There is no way, no look n to 

break this burden 

That more that I want you 

Oh god, there is never anyone like you

They said that it's an obsession 

That is never ending 

But there is nobody compared to you 

Now, what's life for ?

If she looks into my eyes

If she looks into my eyes

should I speak or not. Oh heart

what shall I do?

Why her mind is not frozen?

Why does she think?

My eyes and everything in me

are calling her.

If she looks in my eyes only once

she'll feel my passion for her right away

If she looks in my eyes only once

She'll feel that I'm melting for her

If she asks me to come once,

My heart pumps like an engine

of a sports car.

I'll come to her I won't say no.

My state is like her

what are she busy for ?

I'm thinking what to think

I don't have to say

she will know by herself

But I'll go forwards her yes I miss her

I'll miss forever.

Words of life

Words on a keyboard,

Letters and numbers,

Mind through movement,

thoughts and actions,

expression of hunger,

Human desire,

press,

Hurry,

Quick,

Outward emotions,

Rushing through the thick,

Survival and devotion,

It can make you have a fit,

The daily hustle and bustle,

The things we do to live on,

just to get by,

just to survive,

Are we even alive ?

What do you feel from the inside ?

It's a constant 

So I'm on it 

wake up try to stop from falling,

Further,

Just so I'm not sitting with a 

pain in my gut,

wishing to world erupt,

Friendless 

Nothing I can control, bend less,

So go away I got to write and send this,

it's endless,

Life till death, till life again,

and again and again and again.

Uncontrollable

An unconditional love

I can't seen to control it.

It leaves me down

I just want to be alone.

I don't make a sound

Tears fall.

You'll never know they were there

You couldn't see them stream

Darkness was only my comfort,

The feeling of winter.

Tears in the snow that you'll

Never know were there.

Sleep

The silence blasting in my head 

Darkness consuming my every thread.

I want to, but I can't 

Lying still, horizontal back.

Thoughts echoing, driving me insane.

How can people handle this everyday.

In this moment time stands still.

Past, present, and future are revealed 

one second you're somewhere, the

next you're not.

I just want it all to stop.

Can I be that ?

In the winter time, I will be your sun.

Let me fill you with light; I want to be only 

one.

I wan't to be in your arms, baby hold me forever.

Kiss me with your lips, yeah we are stronger

together.

Let me be your sweater when you're cold..

be your tissue when you cry...

I wan't to be your everything and you're the 

reason why.

I wanna have a place, baby let me be your 

Prince.

I'll fill your life with happiness; your life will be 

a dream.

I'm waiting can't you see? Open your eyes!

You already won the race, baby let 

me be your prize.

What's life for ?

What's life for ?

Life for a special occasion.

Which could be full of dramatization.

it could be depressive

or joyful as well.

Aims could be different

But the conclusion should be fun.

Some people live life enormously while

some live like snails.

Life could be prosperous for some

While a burden for others.

Life could be a heaven divine or could

be same as living hell.

So what's life for?

Let the prosperity outshine the

darkness.

Let the positivity finish 

every negativity.

Let your life full of joy.

And throw away every single sorrow.

So, what's life really for ?

Life is a beautiful playground in which we

are just like kids.

If one falls then another helps him to

stand.

Life is a enormous cycle of dependence.

But don't keep depending on others

Create your own path

which others will follow.  

Blood bound

I can hold my breathe 

And commit to death

I can hold my heart 

And vow it to you 

I can close my eyes 

And promise to see

But my blood bound organs 

They may not agree.  

                                       -Shayan sengupta

Strange dreams

I've dreamed about you a lot

recently 

you were talking and walking again

like the way used to be.

Is it only me,

or are you trying to say something ?

you've lost the ability,

and prison is the form of your now

harsh reality.

I didn't want to wake up all too soon,

knowing I'd cry again.

When will god ever spare the pain?

They all say those dreams could mean 

anything,

Yet now I'm too afraid to think.

Strange dreams,

don't confuse me.

I'm already  perplexed by reality.

Are you predictions of the future that be,

or a warning sign of what I might not

like to see?

Either way,

I'll still have to face every possibility.

This silence is killing me

This silence is killing me 

oh my dear 

hear this clear.

Why have you forgotten me,

Why must it be my soul that bleeds..

Once I knew this girl,

Let her in my world,

She smiled and made me so happy,

Then stopped it all and never got back

at me,

This silence is killing me

I wrote her many times,

Still I got no replies.

Not a single word,

Was I that unheard,

I poured out my soul to her,

Still nothing now my mind still stirs,

No reply

Nothing

This silence is killing me. 

Thought I loved you

Sometimes I wish you were here 

And that's why there is a falling tear

I can't believe I loved you

I can't believe you thought I did too.

That wasn't for real 

I now wish I couldn't feel 

I used to wonder if it would last

But now, it's too late

I am so gone and we are so done 

I can't do this 

I wish I went back to the first kiss 

I knew something was wrong 

I dragged it on too long

I swear I didn't use you

But you might have too

I don't know 

This was probably all just a show 

It's finally at it's fall

No more running for cover.

I miss you

I miss you more than 

words can describe,

I miss you more now that 

You're not in my life.

I miss you more than the 

skies are blue,

I miss you more than the 

world is true.

I miss you "oh" so much

Can't you see,

I miss you so much

but now you are not with me 

I miss your smile, your laugh

and your corny jokes,

I even miss your smell and 

your sense of style,

I miss how you used to 

get all bug- eyed.

I miss your voice  and the 

sweetness when you sand,

I even miss when we used to fight

I miss you now more than anything.

I miss your hair and that

night we played truth or dare,

I even miss how you used to care,

i miss those days we would 

ride around.

Talk endless hours about being bound.

I miss how we used to play

fight with each other everyday.

I miss those long slow

kisses in the day,

How'd you cuddle with

me in every way.

I miss you now more than 

I can express 

I miss you and how you

used to impress.

I miss your eyes for 

now and when,

I'll miss you tell the time

is thin.

So typical

This is so typical, isn't this ?

There's a lot we often miss;

a vacant space to waste

daydreaming on easy, lazy days.

There are people we often take for granted 

Being busy has kept us separated.

Then we start freaking out when

It's time for them to go.

"please, stay" ! We often beg them so.

"Stay another day,

even if you still have to go away.

one more hug, one last kiss,

Just one final, momentary bliss?"

This is so typical, don't you think?

Oh, how many regrets and much

despair it brings.

Will there always be that little chance

for us to only repent and make amends?  

                                                            by Shayan Sengupta

To the world.

What do you mean to the world? 

I don't know, to be honest 

What do you mean to those around you ?

That's different

You're someone to care for 

You're someone to laugh with 

To cry with 

But you should not become someone 

to be missed.

It'll pass 

But I know it doesn't feel like it 

But it's not easy

But I know you can do it.

You have self-worth

At least you should 

Because you sure as hell have worth

to those who know you.

If you can worry someone as much as me 

Then you have a reason to live.

If someone gives a damn

That's reason enough

If someone cares about you 

Then you have a purpose 

To live happily 

So you can both be happy.
                                               by Shayan Sengupta